JOMARPAGE

Sana Matupad Lahat...

2008-11-15T07:53:00.003+08:00

We've Got It All For You

2008-11-14T14:16:00.001+08:00

O, saan ka pa?

and I'm 26...

2008-08-10T19:25:00.003+08:00

It's my birthday today...
Photo by Anthony Bueta

Bachelor No More

2008-03-19T15:52:00.000+08:00

Propromote ko lang yung kasal ni Oliver sa April 4, 2008. Siya ang unang magpapaalam sa pagiging bachelor. Sinu kaya susunod? John nilagpasan ka ni Oliver kung susundin ung JOMARPAGE, ibig sabihin si Mark na. hehehe. Gaya ng sinabi ni John ang bilis ng panahon. Parang kailan lang hindi pa buo JOMARPAGE nung elementary pero yung iba satin magkakakilala na. This shows kung gaano na katagal ang barkada. Naalala ko tuloy nung college days, pag nakabingwit ka daw sa JOMARPAGE swerte. Hahaha. Masabi kaya ni Ness yan. (peace Yong).

Gusto kasi ni Oliver buo sa kasal niya minus John na alam naman natin kung bakit hindi makakasama. Pero malay mo sorpresahin tayo biglang umuwi. hehehe. I-iinum ka na lang namin John. Sakto bago camera nina Paul at Boboy, masusubukan, ika nga "me isang bubukol dyan". Si Aldrin pa pala photography enthusiast din. Si Mark, Rayfel at Evanray wala akong masyadong balita. Huli kong balita, si Mark ata live-in na tapos si Evanray no comment. hahah. Vanray paramdam ka naman. Ako naman kakalipat ko lang ng ibang department kaya petix mode pa. Daming time magblog. Sa ngayon kay Yong muna ang spotlight.

Cheers to Yong and Ness!!!

Ang Panahon Na Lumipas

2008-03-18T04:39:00.003+08:00

Kumusta mga kapatid? Gusto ko lang mangamusta. Sino na ba sa kada ang ikakasal na? almost 10 years na since grumaduate tayu ng HS. Kay bilis lumipas ng panahon. Parang kailan lang kasama ko kayong tumatambay, namimirata sa Recto, umiinom ng toma at kumakain ng instant noodles na especialty ni Yong. Eto ako ngayun sinusubukan pa ring makatapos, ang dila ko pa rin ay nalilito paminsan minsan kung ingles o tagalog ang aking kausap. Natatagalog ko minsan ang roommate kong mexicano. Ano pa ba? hmmm. Masaya ako with my love life. Tampuhan paminsan minsan kami pero ok naman. Natural naman yon.

Tuwa naman ako na into photography na ang kada. Tanung ko lang kung kailan kukuha si ner? o si yong ng Dslr? Bili na!!!

As for me nagbuibuildup pa rin ako portfolio. As for photography pinpraktis ko ang strobe photography, fashion, art (lomography) kakabili ko lang ng first holga ko kahapon: Medium format film, bibili rin ako ng H2 Zoom audio recorder para makapagproduce rin ng multimedias na hindi ako umaasa sa school. Naghahanap din ako ng program for editing sound. Audacity daw libre saka ok ang performance para sa PC, pero kung magswiswitch ako sa Mac mag-soundtrack pro ako. Soundslides pro ang gamit kong program para sa slideshows. Isa pang gusto kong maaccomplish sa summer e makabuo ng portfolio website ko.

Next semester ang scheduled graduation ko... hopefully eto na to! Kung baga "Sa wakas!!" Aba pakiramdam ko nag medicine ako sa tagal ko na nasa school. Ang nakakatakot nga lang hindi ko alam kung ano mangyayari sakin pagtapos ko... bahala na.

xpress.sfsu.edu (school newspaper website namin, dito marami rami na rin ako nagawang multimedias)

Yun lang mga pre. As soon as madevelop ang first medium format film captures ko with Holga. Upload ko sa Flickr account ko.

Update update naman dyan mga kapatid!!!!!

Sa may Panulukan

2008-02-20T13:10:00.001+08:00

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Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy

Inuman time.

The Art of Letting Go

2008-01-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short

Author Unknown

Hello 2008!

2008-01-02T13:30:00.000+08:00

Closing Cycles

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.

by Paulo Coelho

QLC Daw O...

2007-12-16T16:32:00.001+08:00

*GOT THIS FROM A FRIEND... ANNA. THE ARTICLE IS FROM BRENDA DELLACASA WRITTEN FOR PLAY MAGAZINE (APRIL 2001)

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along With the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are right now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly,change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved so much could do such damage to you. Relationships have ended causing you to lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but also love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. At other times you are looking for that special guy or girl and don't even realize their right in front of you. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.

Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, and the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends (or early 30s) friends..maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion... And if you cannot relate to this email because at this point in time of your life, everything just seems to be falling in place and life just could not get any better! well then good for you! you are very fortunate but send this on anyways...there may be someone you know that may be going through such anxieties...

Bula- komposisyon

2007-12-13T00:20:00.001+08:00

I made this music player at MyFlashFetish.com.

Kantang ginawa namin ng mga kaibigan kong pinoy dito. Wala lang. Medyo bored lang kami. Ako gumawa ng lyrics. Pero ung gitara kaibigan ko si Mike Bachiller and bro nya si Mark. Un lang. Exclusive release ko sa barakada hahahahaha. Never will it be heard anywhere again. Hope yo guys are doing fine mga kapatid. I still have a year left of school. Hopefully after I'd get a job. If not, balik waiter ako. lol. Miss you guys. Sana magkitakita tayo soon.

Bula -Komposisyon

2007-12-13T00:11:00.001+08:00

Kantang ginawa namin ng mga kaibigan kong pinoy dito. Wala lang. Medyo bored lang kami. Ako gumawa ng lyrics. Pero ung gitara kaibigan ko si Mike Bachiller and bro nya si Mark. Un lang. Exclusive release ko sa barakada hahahahaha. Never will it be heard anywhere again. Hope yo guys are doing fine mga kapatid. I still have a year left of school. Hopefully after I'd get a job. If not, balik waiter ako. lol. Miss you guys. Sana magkitakita tayo soon.

Boracay Adventure

2007-10-22T23:06:00.001+08:00

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Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy

Went to Boracay last October 17-22 2007 with office friends. Check out some of the awesome photos courtesy of Alfie Gonzales and his awesome Nikon D80. Enjoy!

A Jester's Missing Smile

2007-10-20T03:46:00.000+08:00

I know what I feel is true, but to think, you of all people would doubt me, it was meaningless then from the start. If you take the words of those who haven't even felt my embrace, an embrace meant only for you then you haven’t appreciated my touch.

The road that we traverse is not made of smooth cement but of gravel and rock debris, but nonetheless I held your hand and walked the path, carried you when your feet blister. Impossible might others think how a jester became a soldier, I became one just for you. But now it’s clear, I am in no capacity to be a soldier – a jester I shall always be. I cried so many times. Tears dried as another drop to wet my peasant shirt. I’m tired. I tried. I failed. This jester shall look for the smile he lost, and never let go of it…ever.

25 and Lovin' It!

2007-08-10T15:46:00.000+08:00

I'm 25 and I'm loving it. Dyaraaaaaaannnnn....

Puerto Galera sunset!

2007-07-08T11:57:00.001+08:00

Puerto Galera sunset!
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy

Puerto Galera sunset!

Meron ba talagang Happy Horse?

2007-07-05T08:35:00.000+08:00

Kagabi, sinamahan ko'ng mga ka-opisina ko na mag-good time sa isang bar and resto na malapit sa pinapasukan ko. Nang malapit na kaming matapos, naalala ko ang Happy Horse. Ang Happy Horse raw ay isang special at limited edition ng Red Horse. Bihira raw itong mapasama sa 1 case ng Red Horse. Malakas daw ang tama nito.
Tinanong ko kung alam nila ang tungkol dito. At dahil sila'y tomador, hindi na bago sa kanila ang nabanggit kong salita.
Sa 6 na boteng nasa lamesa namin, sinubukan kong paghambingin bawat isa. Aba! Akalain mong may isang bote'ng naiiba. Bigla kaming natuwa sa aming nakita. Dahil sa sobrang happy namin, nabasag ang bote na may nakangiting kabayo.
Happy Horse nga ba ang boteng ito?

Shake and Bake!

2007-06-27T16:27:00.001+08:00

Yo Boy! Remember this? I won pala. He he he...
Damn! I miss Singapore!

Fake miniature photography

2007-06-24T16:09:00.000+08:00

With a very little effort, you can take existing photographs of everyday scenes and make it look like they're actually of miniature models.

Pasig City Miniature. :)

2007-06-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

my lame attempt at doing tilt shift photography (PHOTOSHOP)

Sabado Night Drinking Session Fun

2007-06-11T12:57:00.000+08:00

Sa wakas nakasama uli si Aldrin. the gym boy.

Gener, the tomador.

Yong, peace bro!

Finally. this one's the only shot with Len. Ayaw magpapicture. Uy.... Aldrin and Len together again, muling ibalik ang tamis ng pag-ibig!

DSC00488

2007-05-16T02:04:00.001+08:00

DSC00488
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy.

Boom boom and pakyaw at Off the Grill!

Eych and tyler! Yahooo! Hehehe

2007-05-15T21:29:00.001+08:00

Eych and tyler! Yahooo! Hehehe
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy.

Eych and tyler! Yahooo! Hehehe

Halalan 2007

2007-05-14T08:32:00.000+08:00

Bumoto ka ba? Ako? Bumoto ako! Dahil alam ko na may timbang at masasabi ang isang boto ko. Proud ako na nagawa ko ang tungkulin ko bilang isang tunay mamamayan kahit na alam ko na hindi lahat ay matutugunan ng ating pamahalaan. Isang paraan ito upang malaman nila na kabilang ako sa mahigit walumpung milyong Filipino na may karapatang magsabi ng hinaing at pangangailangan.
Sana ikaw rin... Bumoto ka!

Vote 4 U

2007-05-14T07:52:00.000+08:00

Communication Foundation for Asia (CFA) has produced a TV Series composed of three episodes about the election. Taking the format of a reality game show, it aims to emphasize the value of every citizen's vote. Veteran filmmaker Clodualdo Del Mundo, Jr will direct the program.

Game participants would be challenged to do deep and serious research on candidates -- focusing on platforms instead of superficials. They would be asked to analyze media coverage of the campaign and election. Surveys and campaign ads would be critiqued. The idea is to make the players (and the audience) aware of how media could manipulate voters through incomplete, inaccurate, irresponsible or unfair portrayal of the campaign and election process. At the conclusion of the program, the players would be asked to devise ways to ensure the protection of ballots.

The program is part of our media support for the Parish Pastoral Council for Responsible Voting (PPCRV).

The said TV Series was shown on Dream Satellite TV, Destiny Cable and ABC 5 last May 11 and 12.

Vote 4 U To Be Shown on ABC 5

2007-05-10T17:45:00.001+08:00

Vote 4 U The Election Game Show will be aired on ABC 5 on May 11 at 10:00 P.M. and on May 12 at 11:00 P.M.
www.youtube.com/cfavideo

It is a voter's education program produced by the Communication Foundation for Asia.
www.cfamedia.org

Hope you could watch it!

Vote 4 U Episode 1 is now on You Tube!

2007-05-03T06:43:00.000+08:00

Dali! Mag-YouTube na at panoorin ang unang episode ng Vote 4 U! Spread the news!

www.youtube.com/cfavideo

Vote 4 U Airdates

2007-05-03T06:35:00.000+08:00

Vote 4 U is slated to be shown over TV Maria on Dream Satellite, and on Destiny Cable Channel 96. Broadcast dates are April 30th at 12:47pm and 4:00pm, May 2nd at 12:30pm and 3:30pm, and May 5, 2007. The series will also be featured in various political education forums in different schools in Metro Manila.

O, ano pa'ng hinihintay n'yo? Pakabit na kayo ng Dream TV o ng Destiny Cable at manuod ng VOTE 4 U!

Vote 4 U

2007-04-29T08:35:00.000+08:00

Coming very soon sa Dream TV... Pakabit na kayo!!!

NSG Antipolo Swimming

2007-04-23T02:13:00.001+08:00

NSG Antipolo Swimming
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy.

Some new found friends. Lately I've been going out to battle depression (naks!)

Depressed sa bahay. Depressed sa trabaho.

Daanin sa inom at babae yan!

abby, pat, ron, chard, jeng, jess, joni, eych, ally and me. the awesome NSG people. I hope to join their gimik again! more at http://nsgadiks.multiply.com

Putek bakit wala ng updates?

2007-04-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

Si janot busy na masyado sa girlfriend. Wala na time for us. What's up janot?

Si Evan busy din, mukhang may bagong gf din. Pakilala mo naman kami.

Oi Paul, we are still the lovable losers that everyone likes. :) Hehehe. Shallow Hal talaga tayo. Very nice!

Si Gener, poging pogi pa rin, lahat ng Chicks namin ni Paul di talaga pasado sa standards ni Gener! Hehehehehe. Huwag mo kalimutan pictures sa Boracay. Dapat makakita ako ng naka two piece dyan. Alam ko naman mga chikas din office mates mo. :)

Post naman kayo uli. Buhayin natin ang Maynila!

Am I?!

2007-04-22T11:21:00.000+08:00

Wala na... Wala na...

2007-03-25T12:06:00.000+08:00

BAKIT WALA NANG NAGBA-BLOG?

BAKIT!!!

RESOLUTIONS

2007-01-19T18:43:00.000+08:00

It's the New Year: New hope, and aspirations, and most of all RESOLUTIONS.

NOSE BLEED and TONDO

2006-12-02T05:48:00.000+08:00

Two of my latest poems. I am still trying to do atleast 20 poems of similar theme and style, so I can have my first cohesive poetry book. By the way, lufet ung surgical procedure mo boy! Any other ideas on what to write?

NOSE BLEED.

“Dats nose bleed pare,” one of my friends said.

Nose bleed. Nose bleed. Nose bleed.

30 minutes ago before calling my friends out to drink:

“I was tinking meybii wii kud go awt samtaym,” I asked.

“Huh?” she answered.

“ay pota korekt naman ingles ko ah,” I thought.

“Go out,” I repeated.

“You want me to leave??!” she exclaimed.

“no.noo. Nevermind,” sabi ko.

30 seconds ago:

The blood trickled painful and slow.

My brain felt like an old computer

trying to send an E-mail

through a dial-up connection.

30 milliseconds ago:

“Ay siyet what’s that word nga pla again?” I thought.

Trying to impress this chick with my aksentles ingles:

I find myself drowning myself in the conversation,

not enough English vocabulary to hold onto to lift myself out of the water.

30 minutes before the encounter:

Standing in front of the mirror,

I practice by talking to myself.

“I was waanderiing ef you wud layk too kick it wid me samtaym,” I said.

Again. Again.

“I was wond’rin if you’d like to kick it with me sometime,” I said.

I smiled proud.

Deeenggg, that was good.

3 years ago:

“Pwede ka bang maligawan?” aking itinanong.

“Oo ba. Bakit hindi,” kanyang sagot.

Hinatid ko siya sa kanila at ako’y umuwing may ngiti sa aking mukha...

TONDO.

I still can smell the burning aroma of dried leaves and trash, of coffee and pandesal.

I still can hear the shout of the Taho and the honk of the puto’t kutsinta vendors, the swish of the walis ting-ting.

Under the noon time sun, I still can see sweaty 8 year old kids, barefooted, scabs on their knees and elbows, mud on their faces, and smiling squint eyes.

I shut my mouth, hold my breath, close my eyes, and cover my ears with my hands – then I re-experience Tondo once more.

In the mid-afternoon, I remember the tambay, a congregation of bored neighbors sitting outside a sari-sari store, eating chichirya and drinking a bottle of kok. Some are there to listen to the chismosa, some wait for the bebot from the other kanto to pass by, some are out there to play the guitar, but most of them are out there because it’s brown-out.

At night, the sari-sari store is packed with topless men of all shapes and sizes. These topless men sometimes bring their own chairs from home to the store. They would buy pulutan, bilog and yosi. But most of the time these items are lista muna. They talk about their grandfathers – a lot. They slur when they talk because of the bilog. They pee on the wall that says “Bawal Umehe Deto” because of the bilog. They have big bellies because of the bilog.

Midnight strikes and the fun have not stopped. By that time, balut and penoy are craved not only by the topless men who drink bilog, but also by the old lady with walis ting-ting, the sweaty 8 year old kids, the tambays, and don’t forget – the bebot from the other kanto.

This is my Tondo. This is a home I can always claim my own. Whenever I look into the mirror and see myself, I remember having that same mud on my face, the same scabs on my earthly toned skin, the same pulutan in my tummy, the same bilog burning my throat, and I remember the same bebot from the kanto kissing my cheeks.

I shut my mouth, hold my breath, close my eyes, and cover my ears with my hands – then I re-experience Tondo once more.

Surgical Procedure

2006-11-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

Surgical Procedure

This is my lame attempt at writing a good old scary story. I wrote it for work during halloween. Grammars all over the place but i dont care. Im just trying to write something twisted and sick. Greatly influenced by horror b-movies, a lil bit of Takashi Miike, splatterfests (evil dead?) and a hint of Saw. The ending kinda sucked.

It was already near midnight when I arrived at the old decrepit hospital. It was a peculiar sight as I walked in, because even though I haven’t been to that place before, I seem to know it like the back of my hand. I know exactly where to go, what directions to take and how to find that particular room. Inside, there were series of long hallways cluttered with old hospital equipments, rusted gurneys and dated hospital machines circa 1978. It seems that no one has ever been to this place for eons now, judging from the high amount of soot and dust covering everything. Room doors were boarded up and bunk beds covered with white satin sheets. As I navigated through the place, I saw the long winding stairs leading up to that room, then, I suddenly realized that I’ve been to this place before! Not “been there” physically but from memory, from my dream perhaps. It was as clear as day now that I remember that spiral staircase, leading up to the one room door that hasn’t been boarded up by large 3 x 4 thick wooden planks. It was room number 13. I slowly and quietly walk up the stairs, mindful of not disturbing any “ghosts” or “spirits” that may have been residing on this god forsaken hellhole of an infirmary.

I opened the door to room number 13. What I saw made my blood curdled and the hair on my back stand on its edge! I screamed at the top of my lungs! Right there at the center of a large rectangular room, which from its glory days might have been used for operating, is a surgical silver metallic table with a slab of seemingly dead corpse. It’s sticking out there at the center like a sore thumb, the table perfectly cleaned and sanitized while the rest of the room and the equipments are still covered with soot and grime. It looked a lot like somebody just operated on the body a few moments ago. It was a C-section. I knew because I’m a surgical intern, a year from finishing up to take residency. It’s weird that somebody meticulously chose this place to perform such delicate operation knowing the high risk of infection.

A female dead individual, right there at the center, wearing a standard blue colored hospital scrubs with her abdomen cut and opened up. The one who operated on her seems to not have been able to finish up and sew the incisions out when she died. From the looks of it, she is just about 19 or 21, certainly not above the age of 25. It was too sad to see her dead. I walked towards the center to inspect further on what might have gone wrong on this botched operation. As I came closer, I saw a faint glint in her eyes. Like a small twinkle, I saw her pupils dilate and eyeballs move! She was still alive!

She was now conscious, heavily breathing and has her eyes wide open, staring intently at me lying there muted, with large shackles on her arms and legs. Aside from the sound of her breathing, no other sound emanates from the room, no beeping hospital equipment, no rats rustling by, and I couldn’t even hear the sound of the footsteps I made. I was really scared and freaked out right there both for myself as well as the unknown individual that may die any second unless I do something. I couldn’t carry her out of that room. No way could I cut those shackles on her arms and legs. I tried to run back the door hoping to get some help from the outside. As I turn the door knob, it wouldn’t budge. Tried again and still not budging. Like a cold shower during a morning bath, there was a tingling sensation in my spine as I realized that somebody locked the door from the outside! Grasping this fact, I circled the room and see if a drawer or some sort of closet might reveal a key to open up that door. Alas, just a few seconds of hustling around proved to be empty. I was losing hope in opening the door. No equipment can be forced into it, no window to break out of. The last resort I did in trying to open that door was to bang my burly body into it and see if ill be able to forced it open or even just make a small crack on its frame. It ended up with me having a dislocated shoulder.

The fear that I had earlier already turned to panic once I realized I couldn’t open the door. I’m freaking out and I can’t keep myself from shaking and moaning in agony because of my bruised shoulder. Deep inside, something’s telling me that the only way to escape this nightmare was to help the lady at the operating table. I got no choice but to help her. With me nursing my injured shoulder, breathe a long heavy sigh, decided to compose myself and turned back to the operating table. At least sew her up and keep her alive till help arrives.

I’m back at the center now, right there at the side of the silver surgical table, now fully composed and getting ready to sew her up. She’s still alive and seems to be feeling no pain, probably from the anesthesia. I kept thinking about what might have she done to end up on this operating table. Why are there shackles on her arms and legs? Why are they restraining her? Lots of questions swirl around my head as I put on the surgical gloves I found. Looking at the equipment and the wound incisions, it came to mind that this was not a cesarean childbirth operation. This was a late abortion surgical procedure. Judging from the way the cuts were made, there is no way they want to keep the fetus alive. Also lying there on the table was a surgical instrument used to crush a fetus’s head. It’s unmistakable. I knew this and I’m familiar with this procedure. I’ve done it before.

With my right hand clasping the surgical scissors, I slowly and carefully tried to lift the body about 2 inches from the table, just to position the incisions so that I’ll be able to sew it properly. As I lift the cold, pasty white, pale body, I heard a faint mumbling sound. At first I couldn’t really hear from where the direction it was coming from. But the second time I heard it, I knew that the sounds were coming from her mouth. She’s trying to tell me something! What could it be? I gently and awkwardly positioned my head near her mouth just to make sense of what she’s trying to say. “We’ve come for you.” Fear was starting to build up again inside me, hearing those chilling words. “Wh-what?” I stuttered. “We are here for payback, to collect our dues.” She said. This sent shivers down my spine. “We?” I confusingly asked since she was the only person in the room. Then she slowly motioned, lifted her arms and pointed to my stomach area. “Me and him!” Right then, my body stiffened and a great pain emanated from the inside of my belly. It was so unbearable that I started to get wobbly and eventually I got on my knees. Something’s moving inside me! It’s like something was trying to escape out of me, trying to punch his way out of my stomach. Searing pain traveled all over my body. Then the worst thing happened, my belly started to grow.

I am now lying there on the soot covered floor during that time because of the pain. I’m on my back, my head arched slightly upward and abdomen bloated like a 9 month pregnant individual. As I lay there, I started to understand what’s going on. This nightmare that I am in was a payback. A payback for all the sins that I’ve committed, for all the babies I’ve killed, for all the abortions that I’ve performed. This is what you’ve get if you moonlights as an abortionist. Unendurable pain, the sensation of stretching skin throbbed through your whole body as you see your stomach grew to inhuman proportions. As tears flowed down my eyes, I’ve decided to just do it. I grabbed the very first surgical knife I saw on the table, an 8 inch stainless steel scalpel and sliced through my tummy. The first cut was like a hot coal searing through my flesh. I can’t help but moan in agony. Another incision followed, then another and another. At last, there was enough opening to put my hand in to get the thing out. My left hand dig inside the wound, trying to find what caused my stomach to bloat. Then I felt it, there it was, my fingers brushed through what seems to be a tiny head, a body with small arms and legs. It was an unborn fetus inside me! I quickly pulled it, yanked it out my stomach. What I saw was the most hideous thing I’ve seen in my entire life. It was a humanoid baby covered with hair all over its body. It was ghastly.

Gripped with fear, my first instinct was to throw the creature out to the far corner of the room. I heard it bounce on the wall then to the floor and it made the most earsplitting cry I’ve ever heard. With my guts showing, soaked in blood, my right hand still holding the scalpel, I heard it crawl through the dirty floor. The cry getting nearer and I’m overwhelmed with fright. I cannot escape the nightmare I’m in and somehow I seem to have accepted my fate. And then I blacked out and fainted……

It wasn’t the loss of blood that killed me; it wasn’t the creature or the fear. It was the guilt.

Five Stages of Grief

2006-11-08T16:04:00.000+08:00

Here's what people deal with after a catastrophic personal lost as decribed by Kübler-Ross.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Five_stages_of_grief

The stages are:
1. Denial and isolation - The "This can't be real" stage.: "This is not happening to me." "There must be a mistake"
2. Anger - The "Why me?" stage.: "How dare you do this to me?!" (either referring to God, the late person, or themselves)
3. Bargaining - The "If I do this, you’ll do that" stage.: "Just let me live to see my son graduate."
4. Depression - The "Defeated" stage.: "I can't bear to face going through this, putting my family through this."
5. Acceptance - The "This is going to happen" stage.: "I'm ready, I don't want to struggle anymore."

Now i want to describe every stages that I'm dealing with right now...
1. I'm denying that I'm falling from her.
2. I'm angry to myself because I don't have the guts to tell her.
3. I'm bargaining that we stay that way although it hurts.
4. I'm depress that I intoxicate myself to forget things.
5. I'm accepting things and getting ready to move on.

Sour Grapes

2006-11-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

It simply means being a sore loser.

Did you know that the phrase sour grapes originated from a fable of Aesop, The Fox and the Grapes?

Wikipedia defines this metaphor as a false denial of one's desire for something that one fails to acquire.

I guess, I am, after all, a sore loser.

Credible No More

2006-10-27T08:39:00.000+08:00

According to Hyperdictionary.com, the word CREDIBLE (pronunciation: 'kredubul) means [adj.] capable of being believed.

And I lost it... I lost it to the one I like. Argh!

But I think it's good. It's a good start as I change my course. Sometimes, I think I'm just being paranoid. I assumed so much, which makes me feel like a jerk.

I'm better when I stay in my room, surfing the net and reading Tagalog erotic stories on PEx all day.

Screw her! There are many others in ITZAMATCH.COM. Ha ha ha!

Stripped Down

2006-10-24T03:13:00.000+08:00

How's it been for you guys? I am here to post my ups and downs since I've last blogged here. first down is that I miss you guys.

Up- I've met a fine girl in a club and she was the one to ask to dance with me.
Down- shes been kinda shady lately and would sometimes not return my calls.

Up- I've made it to SFSUs Journalism program.
Down- I'm broke.

Up-I don't spend any money on gas anymore, because I just commute.
Down-It's hard getting a date, since I do not have my car in SF.

Up-I am in the big city now.
Down- no one to enjoy it with.

Up-My reporting skills are improving.
Down- I've been writing 6 page papers every week.

Up Up Up!! - I had my first photo on the SF state paper (one front page. one inside.) It is required to have had done with photojourn2 and reporting to be on the paper - I haven't had photojourn2 and I'm not done with reporting yet. So it means a lot to me. Yey!
Up Up and more Up!! - I won 1st place on Northern Caifornia's City College Photo Story competition.

Down Down- I am behind with my reporting class.
Down way down- Its been hard to find a girl that really cares.

I am happy where I am now, but the workload has been killing me. I am happy that I am surrounded with bunch of good-looking women, but I have none to call my own. I am happy that I am a junior now (again, computer engineering junior before).

Mga kapatid how I wish you are all there to be with me during my ups and downs. To celebrate with me, To tell me its going to be fine when all seems hopeless, to laugh, and to cry, to drink till sunrise like we did before, and to spend a whole day doing nothing to enjoy the silence.

Silence without no one to enjoy it with me has been an ordeal.

Mahal ko kayo mga pre. Till next time we meet.

Changing Course

2006-10-20T15:21:00.000+08:00

The past days I learned that there are things that are not really for me.
It's hard to accept but it is the truth.

My stay in CFA has been one of the happiest moments of my life.

It is indeed true, that good things never last. Yes, there are good things in CFA yet I know, it would not last. How sad and yes it is true.

But my life must go on. I just need to accept that "she's not meant for me". I know it sounds bullshit but, hey, it's fucking true.

Why would I make her my priority if I'm just her option???

I hate it... and guess what??? I'm still a loser!

Beauty and Madness by Oliver and Gener

2006-09-04T06:22:00.000+08:00

Sunday night at Los Indios Bar, Malate. Oliver and Gener saw an opportunity to sing in front of a live audience.

Pretty fucking cool.

Sorry for the poor quality of the video. It was taken with my shitty cameraphone.

Harder...

2006-09-04T02:37:00.000+08:00

If you stumble… you’re bound to fall…
And if you do… do not cry…
For your tears will drop naturally
And if it does… do not sob…
It won’t do you any good

Now Think…

What made you fall?
Was it you?
Or was it them?
Does it matter?
Think Harder

Now Look…

What do you see?
Your eyes can be deceiving
And so is your mind
It sees things what it wanted to see
Why not use your heart instead?
It sees things that only you can see
Have you found what you’re looking for?
Look closer

Now what?

Life has its ups and downs
It’s always been half empty or half full
So which side you’re on now?

Try Harder and Think again…

"I REALLY HATE ANGELS"

2006-09-04T02:25:00.000+08:00

FOUR YEARS HAD GONE BY…
I NEVER GET TO NOTICED IT
‘TIL I HEARD SOMEONE WHISPERED HER NAME…
I TURNED AROUND, BUT ONLY TO FIND MYSELF
STARING AT NOTHING…
STANDING ON NOWHERE…

LOVE NEVER FELT SO COLD…

IT TOOK A WHILE FOR ME TO REALIZE…
…THAT IT WAS JUST MY HEART ALL ALONG…
…WHISPERING HOW MUCH I MISS HER…

BUT DOES SHE EVER MISSES ME TOO ?
I DON’T KNOW…
I’LL NEVER KNOW…

AS I WALK , MEMORIES BEGUN TO BITE…
OF ALL THE TIME WE SPENT TOGETHER ,
I’LL NEVER GONNA FORGET THAT DAY,
…THE DAY SHE CALLED MY NAME…
…SMILED AT ME…
…AND TURNED AWAY…

LOVE NEVER FELT SO ALONE…

SHE NEVER ASKED ME TO LEAVE…
SHE NEVER ASKED ME TO STAY…
I’M CONFUSED…

“DID I FAIL TO LOVE YOU MORE EACH DAY…
…THAT MADE YOU TURN AWAY ?”

THEN I SAW HER LAUGHING WITH THIS GUY
MADE ME WANNA LOSE MYSELF
THE WAY SHE LOOKS INTO HIS EYES,
THAT SMILE ON HER FACE…
…THINGS THAT I NEVER SAW…
…WHEN SHE WAS WITH ME…

LOVE NEVER FELT SO UNFAIR …

I GUESS SOME WORDS ARE BETTER LEFT UNSPOKEN…
SOME THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT UNDONE…
BUT HOW WAS I…? I’M NOT READY FOR GOODBYE…

“DID YOU BUILD ME UP ONLY TO LET ME FALL ?”
IT DIDN’T MATTER THEN…
IT WOULDN’T MATTER NOW…

I THOUGHT I WAS MORE THAN A FRIEND TO HER…
I THOUGHT ONE DAY SHE’LL SEE THINGS MY WAY…
I THOUGHT WHAT WE HAD WAS ESPECIAL…
BUT NOW I KNOW…
A THOUSAND TEARS WOULD NEVER BRING HER BACK ,
I KNOW…BECAUSE I CRIED…

LOVE NEVER CRIED A RIVER OF TEARS BEFORE…

NOW WE’RE STRANGERS AGAIN…
A NOBODY…THAT’S ALL I’VE EVER BEEN…
…THAT’S ALL I EVER WILL…

“WAS IT I ? WHO HOLD ON YOU TOO TIGHT ?”
I’M SORRY , I’M AS SCARED AS A BABY TO LOSE YOU…

BUT I CAN NEVER LOSE… WHAT I NEVER HAD…

WILL I KEEP ON WALKING ?
OR SHOULD I KEEP ON WAITING ?
GIRL YOU KNOW I MUST MOVE ON…BUT,
…BOY I CAN’T LET GO…

WILL SHE LOOK MY WAY…
…IF I STAND IN HER WAY ?
THERE’S GOT TO BE SOME OTHER WAY…

AND NOW SOMEHOW…

I’M BEGINNING TO HATE HER…AGAIN…
…’COZ I’VE STARTED TO LOVE HER…’TIL THE END

I HATE IT WHEN SHE SMILES AT HIM…
…BUT IF IT IS JOY THAT SHE FEELS…
…I’LL BE HAPPY FOR HER…

I HATE IT WHENEVER I SEE THEM…
EVEN MORE WHEN SHE LOOKS AT HIM…
…BUT IF IT IS LOVE THAT SHE SEES…
…THEN I REST MY CASE…

AND TO YOU MY ANGEL…

I NEVER FELT TRUE LOVE UNTIL YOU CAME…
AND I NEVER FELT TRUE SADNESS UNTIL YOU LEFT…
BUT THE HARDEST PART IS…YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE…
…YOU NEVER DID…
…SO I’LL JUST SAY…-”THANK YOU,” INSTEAD…
…AND WALK AWAY SO YOU WON’T SEE ME CRY....

GOD, I REALLY HATE ANGELS…!!!

I'M SO SORRY...

2006-09-01T15:39:00.000+08:00

We started on the right foot
You and I, hand in hand as we walk
But somehow along this winding road
I lost track of where I am
I look back, but only to find myself
Holding nobody...
I never knew what I had
Until I felt sad...

Where are you?

I can't find my way back to you
Who's holding you now?
If only I've been half the man I was
If only I've said the right words

But now I know...

A thousand tears can never bring you back
I know because I cried...

Always been a one way street

I took you for granted
You never felt appreciated
Never gave you all you wanted

But believe me this when I say,

It's only you that I ever needed
It's only you that I ever waited

It's you, I wanna walk this road with
It's you, I wanna live my life with

I thank not the day I saw you
But the day we found each other

Now you left...

You took not only my heart with you
But everything that I am
And everything I wanna be
You see I build this dream with you in it
But now that you're gone
Empty dreams are all that's left of me

From now on...

No man will be ever worth your tears
And the one who is...
Will never make you cry

You deserved someone better
Someone who won't make the same mistake I did
Not even the way I treated you
And if you find him
Keep him in your arms
Never let him go
You deserved to laugh
I can only make you smile

I know you'll never come back...

So I'll just sit here and think of you
Hoping one day you'll pass me by

We haven't said our line...
I haven't said "I'm sorry..."
And you haven't said "Goodbye..."

On this road I'll wait...
I'll wait... until the sun and the moon leaves the sky

Hey! I'm 24

2006-08-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

It's the 10th of August, I'm 24. Wala pa rin nangyayaring OK sa buhay ko. Crap.

New project for John

2006-05-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

New project for John
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy.

I was able to chat with John and he showed me a bunch of pictures that he photographed. The pictures were awesome and it really really looks professionally shot. John asked me to create a website to showcase the pictures.....

This is now my new project. Hopefully I'll be able to finish it.....

Take a look at the first draft of the site......

More to come. Feedback naman dyan....

IM always available Online

2006-04-10T08:52:00.000+08:00

I installed GAIM in my PC.
I am now always available online at these addresses:

On YAHOO IM:

ATTHELPDESK@YAHOO.COM

On GOOGLE TALK:

THEMATRIXHASME@GMAIL.COM

Aftershock

2006-04-04T09:33:00.000+08:00

Muli na naman kaming uminom ng alak kagabi. Quince años ang tinumba namin. Apat lang kami ng aking mga ka-opisina. Biglaan ang pag-inom kaya’t dali-dali rin ang ikot ng tagay. Lahat sila ay umaangal sapagkat sadyang mabilis ang ikot. Mabuti na lang at na-solve kami sa aming biniling pulutan. Konting tsitsirya lang at mainit na sabaw, tamang-tama ang amats. Sinundan namin ito ng tapsilog at pagkatapos n’on ay nag-uwian na kami.

Hanggang ngayong umaga may aftershock pa rin. Mabuti na lang at wala ng pasok ang mga estudyante at mabilis ang byahe ngunit na-late ako sa pagpasok ko sa opisina. Isang mahabang araw na naman ito. Sana ay mawala na itong aftershock na nararamdaman ko.

Matindi ang Init

2006-04-03T11:01:00.000+08:00

Ramdam na ramdam na ang init ngayong Abril. Lahat ay umaangal sa init na nararamdaman. Kahapon ay maghapon lang ako sa bahay. Buong araw kong inaayos ang aking mga music files. Hindi ko pa rin tapos, siguro mga nasa 10 to 15 percent pa lang ang mga naayos kong file name. Kapag naayos ko na lahat ay pagsasamahin ko naman sa iisang folder. Siguro by next week ay maaayos ko na silang lahat. Isusunod ko naman ang pag-ayos ng mga images at photos sa computer ko.

Buong araw din kaming kumakain ng aking kamag-anak kahapon. Marami na ang nakapapansin na tumataba ako. Hindi naman ako umaangal sapagkat totoo naman. Halata naman sa muling paglaki ng aking tyan at mga bilbil at ramdam ko rin ang aking pagbigat. Hindi ko kasi mapigilan ang pagkain. Marahil na rin sa sitwasyon naming sa opisina. Kailangang may pang-divert ka ng problema upang hindi ka ma-pressure. Ngayong araw na ito, susubukan ko na makabalik sa gym o di naman ay gamitin ang biniling stationary bicycle sa bahay. Mahirap na baka lumobo ako ulit…

Sana lang ay maging maayos na ang lahat pagkatapos ng mahal na araw. Masyadong maraming problema sa opisina at may mga dapat din akong pagtuunan ng pansin. Ang hirap talaga ng buhay ngayon. Lahat ng bagay ay tumitindi… Pati ang init ay tumitindi… Tubig nga…

Hindi ba't April Fool's Day?

2006-04-01T08:13:00.000+08:00

Good luck sa akin.

March Madness

2006-03-29T20:48:00.000+08:00

Anak ng... Bakit ako lang ang nagpo-post? Magparamdam naman kayo dyan! Anak ng...

Isa na lang...

2006-02-25T10:26:00.000+08:00

Mabuti na lang at natapos na namin ang project sa school.

Kaninang madaling araw ay natapos na namin ang AVP para sa concert ni Mitch Valdes sa darating na Lunes sa may GSIS theater. Pagkatapos ng 2 revision ng AVP ay sumakto na ang timpla sa panlasa ng mga taga-DSWD. Salamat sa aking mahusay na classmate na si Sheillavie at sa tulong na rin ng aming Creative Consultant na si Prof. Chris Cortado, maayos ang kinalabasan ng video.

Ngayon ay pwede na akong magsimula sa aking mga assignments sa office. Siguradong matatapos ko na ang mga sinusulat ko dahil wala na akong aalalahanin pa sa school.

Bago ako magtapos, isa munang maligayang pagbati sa aming kapatid na si OLIVER.

Happy birthday, 'Tol! Kailan ang inuman?

Hanggang sa muli...

Kay ikli ng panahon...

2006-02-12T10:29:00.000+08:00

Itong mga nakaraang mga araw, halos hindi ko na magawa lahat ng mga kailangan kong tapusin. Sabay-sabay ang mga assignments ko sa school at ganoon na rin sa aking deadline sa opisina.
Naisip ko minsan na i-give up na lang ang trabaho. Ngunit ayaw kong umalis sa CFA. May mga kaibigan akong natagpuan doon. Isa pa, kahit maliit lang ang sahod ko ay napagbibigyan ko naman ang luho ko. Iyon nga lang, kulang talaga!

Noong nakaraang linggo, umugong ang balita sa aming opisina tungkol sa future ng Barkada Magazine. At noong Biyernes, nagkaroon ng linaw ang lahat. Babaguhin ang content ng Barkada. Hindi pa tapos ang brainstorming, ngunit ito ang napagpasyahan ng Nakatataas.
Excited ako ngunit naiinis din sa magaganap. Hindi lubos ang kagalakan ko sa pagbabago ng Barkada. Naisip ko, bagong ang sistema ngunit ang dati pa rin ang mga magpapalakad. Hindi lubos ang pagbabago. Kulang. Ngunit, umaasa ako na may magandang kahihinatnan ang lakad na ito.

At itong nagdaang mga lingo rin ay may nangyaring kanais-nais sa akin. Pambihira talaga ang puso kapag naglaro. Ngunit may natutunan ako sa nakaraan ko. At ito ang magiging sandigan ko sa bagong hamon ng pag-ibig na ito. Hindi na ako tulad ng dati na kalilimutan ang lahat dahil sa lang sa pag-ibig. Pero hindi rito nagtatapos. Baka sa mga susunod na linggo ay lamunin ko ang lahat ng sinabi tungkol sa pag-ibig. Isa lang ang dapat kong gawin! Hinay-hinay lang... cool lang dapat.

Sana matapos na ang lahat ng ito. Gusto ko namang pasayahin ang sarili ko.

Kulang... ngayon ay kulang na para sa akin ang 24 oras. Sana dumating uli ang panahon na ang 24 oras ay sobra para sa akin.

Wala lang

2006-01-30T07:02:00.000+08:00

Share ko lang tong ink sketch ko. =)

Dinagyang 2006

2006-01-29T20:23:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Iloilo mga kapatid. The city is nice and the Ilonggos too. Hope we could all go together there. Ciao!

I've seen Narnia

2006-01-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

I watched it sa SM Manila. Alone. Damn!

Asan Ka? (tula)

2006-01-09T18:43:00.000+08:00

Asan ka?

Tumungo ako sa kung saan kita huling naghagkan,
Ngunit pati anino mo ako’y tinataguan.

Sa mataong lugar,
Hinahanap ang iyong ngiti,
At nangarap matawag muli nang iyong tinig.
 
Tumuloy ako sa aking paglakad,
Nakatitig sa lupa’t
Yapak mo’y ipinagbakasakaling mahagilap.
 
Umulan at bakas ng iyong paa tuluyang naglaho.
Tinangay ng ihip ng hangin,
Binaha, binubura bawat tulo.
 
Nagtakbuhan na nga sila’t ayaw mabasa
Tao sa kalsada’y biglang naglaho’t nawala.
Tinawag na katangahan ang pagtahak patungo sa’yo sa piling ng unos.
Ito’y hindi ko ininda dahil mahal kitang lubos.
 
Hindi ako sumuko,
Hinarap ang hanging tumutulak sakin palayo,
Palayo sayo.
Sumabay sa bugso nang ulan ang aking luhang pinipilit itago.
 
Asan ka? aking isinigaw ngunit ito’y nilamon nang kulog.
Asan ka? Aking ibinulong ngunit ito’y hinigop ng ulan.
 
Asan ka?
Asan k?
Asan?
Asa?
As?
A?
?
 
 
 

A Not So Manic Tuesday

2006-01-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

It's our first day of the year at work and it we're very busy! Busy talking stuffs that aren't related to our work. Ha ha ha! That's because all our magazines are all in for printing.
I'm excited to participate on our annual planning because this will be my first time to do so. Our ailing magazine, Barkada, was spared from being sacked. However, they decided to reduce the number of pages and study its contents. We still have to talk about this on the coming weeks.

It's nice to hear from our very dear friend, John. I want you to know that we miss you too, pre. We hope to see you soon and we wish you the best!

Paul... out!

Missing The Good Ol' Times

2006-01-03T15:49:00.000+08:00

Mga pare, homesick lang ako. It's been awhile since I last posted anything here. Medyo naging busy ako sa school and work. I've spent my Christmas with my cousins. Tambay, kain, laro ng poker at inum lang sa isang bahay. I've worked new years eve sa Max till 9 pm, tapos uwi sa bahay and ate dinner with family. Natulog na rin ako after that kasi kelangan ko pang gumising nang maaga to work again. Boring noh?

Next spirng semester I'm taking 18 units. I'm just trying to finish all my pre-req to transfer to San Fran State. Nga pla, I'll double major, photojournalism and Asian American studies. I hope this gives me an edge when the time I need to get a work. Maybe 2-3 years pa ako to finish. I'm excited this next semester dahil photo editor na ako sa school newspaper.

My lovelife has been in its all time low. I've had a couple of prospects, kaso either may bf na or nauunahan ako. tsk tsk. I had a couple of flings pero I never scored all the way, and if i did i don't think i would have been proud or happy of it either. I want a serious relationship na mga kapatid, pero ang hirap maghanap.

Sabi nila, just wait. But i feel i've been waiting in vain.

Sana andito rin kayo. Sana makagala ulit tayo. Kamiss talaga pare. I feel that i've been doing everything myself and no one to share my frustrations and hardships. Pag may problema and computer ko, wala akong barkadang matawag para tulungan ayusin ang pc ko habng nagiinuman. Wala akong barkadang matawagan kung nababato ako, o kayay gustong sabihan ng problema. Wala akong barkadang mapuntahan para tumambay. Wala akong matawagan para gumala anytime. Kung gusto kong manood ng sine, kung gusto kong magkape, kung gusto kong umiya, kung gusto kong pagmayabang ang bago kong cellphone, o bagong game na gusto kong laruin ninyo rin ...ang hirap pare. Ang layo ninyo.

I wish you guys the best this year. Nga pla, this year is the year of the dog mga kapatid! This is our year. Year of the dog tayong mga 1982. We will kick-ass no doubt, I just hope and wish that we're not miles away while kicking all their arses.

John G. Hernandez signing out!

Happy 2006!!!

2006-01-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

Mga 'tol, happy new year!
Sana maging masagana at maganda ang bagong taon para sa ating lahat.
Miss ko na kayong lahat, sana magkita-kita naman tayo.
Good luck sa ating lahat...
Alak pa!!!

Paul... out!

CSI: NY Marathon

2005-12-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

Nasa 6th disc na ako. Bukas tapos ko na 'to. Thanks to Boboy.
Christmas break sa office. One week din ang rest ko. Nakakainip! Parang hindi holiday. Hindi festive ang mood. Tapos nasabayan pa ng mga suck up moments at kung anu-anong kabaduyan at kakornihan. Hirap talagang napapasubo... sabi nga nila "it's the crazy little thing called L.O.V.E."
Bukas, pupunta ako sa outside world. Nang malanghap ko naman ang Maynila. Tingin-tingin, kapag may nagustuhan, bibilhin.
Wala na! Wala ng 'yong plan na Christmas party ng JOMARPAGE. Dapat talaga hindi pinaplano, kasi naman hindi na tayo natuto. Tsk! Tsk!
Hanggang sa muli...

Paul... OUT!

Gotta agree with that one

2005-12-14T06:40:00.000+08:00

I agree Paul. Dito sa may METROBANK malapit sa amin, ang gaganda nga. Siguro mga 20- 28 lang mga age nun. Syempre dapat presentable yung kaharap mo para marami kang ideposit na pera.... Wahehehehehehe. ganun ba yun?

Anyway... gotta watch KING KONG later. Cant wait.

Those Ladies Behind the Counter

2005-12-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

This is based on my experience...

Wanna find young, sexy and very good-looking ladies?

Go to the nearest bank!

I don't know! I have been to a couple of banks these days and the I realized this...

Beautiful ladies are inside a bank.

Well, to be sure I suggest you go visit Banco de Oro and Bank of the Philippine Islands.

Allied Bank, uhmmm... Pwede na!

But I will really recommend going to Banco de Oro.

If you feel you want to brighten your day by looking for high-quality, young and sexy daisies, try visiting these banks.

Good luck!

Under Pressure

2005-12-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

Now I feel the pressure of being an employee and at the same, a student.

Pakiramdam ko kulang na ang 24 oras para sa akin.

Maraming ginagawa sa work at marami ring ginagawa sa school.

Naisip ko na kailangan lang ng tiyaga.

Sana lang, ako'y umaasa na may patutunguhan itong ginagawa ko ngayon sa buhay ko.

Ang dami kong gusto pero hindi ko magawa lahat.

Maraming sagabal at maraming dapat intindihin.

Tama ang sinabi ng isa kong kakilala, mahirap maging mediocre!

Hay...

22 Days and it's Christmas again!

2005-12-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

Ang bilis ng panahon. Parang kailan lang ang nagdaang Pasko. Heto't paparating na muli.
Marami na ang nagbago mula noong nakaraang taon.
May trabaho na ako at muli akong nag-aaral.
Sa totoo lang, ang dami kong gustong mangyari sa buhay ko ngayon.
Kung may paraan lang upang matupad itong lahat, matagal ko nang ginawa.
Buti na lang at may mga taong nagmamahal sa akin.
Nagpapaalala...
Gumagabay...
at
Nagpapasaya sa akin!

Kaya sa mga taong nakapaligid sa akin...

Maraming salamat, mahal ko kayong lahat!

Isang paalala lang...

I-swipe mo! Ha ha ha!

This is Paul... OUT!

Aiming High

2005-10-20T11:04:00.000+08:00

Aiming High
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy.

What should i do with my life?

2005-10-12T07:18:00.000+08:00

23 and still a loser...

Cool site about Lost

2005-10-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

Kung may spare time kayo mga Pare...

http://www.hanttula.com/projects/lost/intro.htm

I really SUCK!!!

2005-09-21T17:53:00.000+08:00

Ka-inis! Torpe talaga ako. Arghhh!!!

Dial up sucks!

2005-09-19T05:07:00.000+08:00

Dial up sucks!
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy.

Bought some new stuffs for my pc. The old mobo got busted. Still waiting for my high speed wirelesS Internet connection from Meridian Telekoms. I hope they'll be able to install it.

This is a test Moblog.

2005-09-09T11:58:00.000+08:00

This is a test Moblog.
Originally uploaded by Tyler Boboy.

This is a test Moblog. 11 am at home. Just woke up. This is sent directly from my phone...

My new number

2005-09-09T07:29:00.000+08:00

09178050375

Some random crap

2005-09-06T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm still testing the camera on my new phone Sony Ericsson W800i. Here are some random crap that i took.

Flickr

2005-08-26T05:58:00.000+08:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Ako'y nalilito...

2005-08-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

Torete
Moonstar88

Sandali na lang
Maaari bang pagbigyan
Aalis na nga
Maaari bang hawakan ang iyong mga kamay
Sana ay maabot ng langit ang iyong mga ngiti
Sana ay masilip

Refrain:
Wag kang mag-alala
Di ko ipipilit sa 'yo
Kahit na lilipad ang isip ko'y torete sa 'yo

Ilang gabi pa nga lang
Nang tayo'y pinagtagpo
Na parang may tumulak
Nanlalamig, nanginginig na ako

Akala ko nung una
May bukas ang ganito
Mabuti pang umiwas
Pero salamat na rin at nagtagpo

Chorus:
Torete, torete, torete ako
Torete, torete, torete sa 'yo

Repeat refrain

Torete, torete, torete ako
Torete, torete, torete ako

Repeat chorus

Torete, torete, torete sa'yo

Wow!

2005-08-19T16:45:00.000+08:00

Musta? It's nice to read your blogs! I feel that somehow you guys are just somewhere behind my monitor. Yo Pol, about this girl, just be upfront, and let her know what your intentions are. Don't wait any longer. Its better to know now the real score, than to postpone it and find out that you've been wasting your time all along. Kung ayaw, hanap ng iba. Kung gusto, e di at least you'll be starting early with getting to know each other. Be agressive. =)

I've seen one episode of Lost, and i agree that it is a good show to watch. The problem is, I dont have time to watchTV. =(

My time right now is divided with School, Work, Clubbing, Reading House Of M (Marvel Universe Special), and playing World Of Warcraft (This game is so addictive.)

World of Warcraft: One of the people i've been playing with said he's from the Philippines! He said he buys a gamecard good for every two months. I'm hoping that atleast in an online universe the barkada could still hangout as fantasy characters. Since I play really late (around 1 - 5 am) then we could play together!

I love you guys! Uwi na ako dyan... I hope soon. Ipon.Ipon. Kaso ang hirap. =(

Age Does Matter

2005-08-19T11:22:00.000+08:00

I am already 23 years old and my mind still thinks like a kid. I just couldn't resist to act like one because, honestly, I feel great everytime I do it. In my more than 4 months in the "real world", most of my colleagues touched my life and some of them inspired me about life.
Now, I am thinking. Is this the right time to think that I am ready to be mature enough about life? Is it time to move on with my life? Maybe I should start fixing my so-called damned life and where would I begin? That is definitely for me to find out. All I need is to be confident and this will guide me through my desire... The real me. Life is beautiful and this world has a lot of things to offer.

No frakking way!

2005-08-17T07:48:00.000+08:00

Nice to know that Paul also had seen the ever intriguing suspense - mystery series LOST!. You're missing out a lot if you still havent seen it yet. Johnny boy, i suggest you buy the original DVDs. It's $ 38.99 on AMAZON. Alam naman namin na kayang kaya mo yan Johnny boy.

Second Season starts on September in the States. Lucky for them. As for us..... well, antayin na lang sa muslim DVDs yan... Hehehehe.

Ipapalabas din pala to sa Studio 23 kaso di ko alam kung kailan. AXN din palabas to di ba?

Favorite episode ko yung NUMBERS. Hurley's flashback story.

on my DVD player right now:

BATTLESTAR GALACTICA
I never thought I'll be a fan of Space Opera science Fiction. Great character interaction. Awesome music and the special effects is not bad either. The cool use of shaky-fidgety cam makes it "realistic". There are adult moments din(If you know what i mean ;)! Female characters are damn hotties as well (BOOMER! Number 6. Pwede na rin si STARBUCK!).

DEADWOOD SEASON 1 & 2
Im still on the first few episodes. Before i saw it, I'm thinking I'll just get bored by the series. Not a big fan of westerns. Pero once i started watching it. Aba, ok din pala. Great characters nanaman! Al Swearengen rocks! Its like the SOPRANOS but set in the 1870s. To think na historically accurate pa ang series na ito..

Lots of sex scenes din. Tits and ass. Scenes of whores being fucked. My kind of town.

Newest on my DVD shelves:
SpongeBob Squarepants season 1 & 2

LAtest movie seen on the SiLVERSCREEN

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Wedding Crashers
The Great RAID -Pwede na rin. Its like one long episode of BAND OF BROTHERS. Too much talking 3/4 into the movie. They should have added more to the great raid. Sana they added more drama + action involving the 21 filipinos that died. But its a hollywood movie so obviously they focused more on the AMERICANS.

Cinematography is good. Cool yung 1940s manila! ok na rin sina Cesar and the reset of the Pinoy actors.

The Longest Yard

Bittorrent Download music:
X&Y CoLDPLAY
DEMON DAYS GORILLAZ
Music from the OC

-excited na ko sa PINOY BIG BROTHER. hehehehe, but i guess magfloflop ito.

Lost... I am lost!

2005-08-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching the first season of Lost. I can't wait to see the second season. I hope it would win this year's Emmys especially the best drama category. O' Quinn is great as John Locke. He's the best. I also like Garcia as Hugo or better known as Hurley. Sawyer is what kind of guy I want to be. "Maangas pero may dating." Hehe... As for the women, I like Yunjin Kim. Whoa! She's hot, man! Well, Lily's hot, too. But I like Sun better. Hehe...

I am totally lost with this girl I've been texting for a while. I don't know where I stand. I now, I have my own mistakes, too. But to she keeps me wondering. I'm thinking that I am really a loser. Why can't she just tell me that she doesn't like me? So I could stop bugging her. I am really lost here, dude. Honestly, I don't know what to do.

360

2005-08-11T05:01:00.000+08:00

dude. try 360.yahoo.com.
Invite me, atthelpdesk@yahoo.com

You cannot escape reality.......

2005-08-01T05:41:00.000+08:00

Hi guys. Magpaparamdam lang ako. I havent been active here this past few months.... Busy lagi sa trabaho. I guess i cannot really escape it. Part of life talaga ang kabullshittang pagtrtrabaho.

Nothing is still happening to my life. No exciting thing to brag about. No love. No hope. No nothing. Minsan minsan lang din ako lumalabas at umiinom, siguro once every month or every 2 months yata.... I cant keep track.... Everytime i go out and drink... everything goes wrong....things get weird and my life seems to go to hell....

my online thingy, wala pa ring profits..... Siguro this month or the next, hell, hindi na rin ako umaasa... I guess its a failure. 4daily.com is experiencing lots of problems that they are unable to pay their members what they owe them. Pero tuloy pa rin sa pagsusurf. 200 dollars din yung ininvest ko dun. At least naman sana makuha ko yun pabalik.

I started to inquire about DSL in my area, plano kong magpakabit but unfortunately hindi DSL ready yung telephone lines dito sa amin. Bundok kasi eh, the wires should be Copper lines. i guess dito sa aming area, made of plastic (hahaha) or something......

I also inquired sa SKYDSL/Bayantel. Available daw sa area namin pero needs additional checking pa. I am keeping my fingers crossed. I really do need DSL right now! INTERNET is my life. plus may naiisip nanaman akong pwedeng pagkakitaan.....

Things that i am crazy about right now:

TV Series and Shows:

Lately, wala na akong ginawa sa bahay kung hindi manuod ng mga tv shows at series. Damn, ilang beses din yung TRIP TO QUIAPO ko to buy some epektos sa BLACK MARKET.

I bought the complete CSI series. Las Vegas, Miami + New York. Every series at Season. Astig nga eh. I guess you can call me a CSI aficianado na. Hehehe. Medyo asar nga lang ako coz sa SEASON 5 DVDs na binili ko, wala yung GRAVE DANGER season ender episodes directed by Quentin Tarantino..... damn.

also seen the series LOST. kingina yan sobrang angas pare. bought the dvds of season 1, i cant stop myself from watching. Ganda nung mga mysteries about the island. it will leave you dumbfounded and youll crave for more.....

24 season 4 din astig. Each season gets better and better. Loved the ending. Awesome. Jack Bauer power hour talaga.....

The OC season 2 din bumili ako. I guess this is my guilty pleasure. Hehehehe. I loved how they could incorporate GEEKINESS and ROMANCE/LOVE thingy. Watch it to see what i mean.

On tv naman, i religiously watch Veronica Mars sa ETC 25. Kristen Bell is a hotty. Plus, cool din naman yung show, Nancy Drew nga daw eh..... Madami daw fans nito and buffy fans before..... I dunno what is the similarity between this and buffy...... NEVER BEEN A FAN OF BUFFY.

Another series that i am crazy about is TWIN PEAKS pare! Remember that series nung bata pa tayo? Shown sa Channel 2 every Sunday night, pagkatapos ng Million Dollar Movies? Early 90's. I recently got interested sa show na ito. Im too young to remember it eh. So i bought the first season sa AMAZON.Co.Uk (Uk version includes the pilot. U.S. version wala) and its cool din. Its some sort of Soap Operaish - Spoof - Murder Mystery. DAVID LYNCH created series so it must be good. mura ko lang nabili 1600 pesos all in all with shipping. Cool nga eh, walang additional tax nung kinuha ko sa Novaliches Post office....

Dami pa. TV/MOVIE geek na talaga ako.

Six feet under/Seinfeld/Simpsons/Sopranos/Carnivale/Alias/CSI/Nip Tuck/Veronica Mars/The OC/Smallville/24/The Office/Twin Peaks

Next time ill try to buy the following series:
Battlestar Galactica/Dead Like Me/Curb Your Enthusiasm/Deadwood

-I really do hope makabitan ako ng DSL. BitTorrent lang katapat ng mga shows na yan. Hehehehehehhehe...

Movies:

One of the best comic book movie ever made BATMAN BEGINS. I dont know if youll agree with me or not but i find the movie too damn good. Its up there with SPIDERMAN 2 and SIN CITY. Teka, baka bias lang ako coz i am a big Christopher Nolan fan (MEMENTO). John padalhan mo naman ako nung FOLLOWING.

Oks din yung WAR of the WORLDs. hell, wala namang pangit na movie ginawa si Spielberg eh. Seamless combination of CGI and live action.

The ISLAND, bleh... rehash action sequences from BAD BOYS 2. Awesome sana yung premise pero Michael Bay dont know how to tell a story. Plus, alam mo na yung twist sa trailer pa lang. LOGAN'S RUN meets MINORITY REPORT. actually remake daw to nung sucky b-movie from the 70's ata CLONUS HORROR.

2 pinoy flicks: PINOY BLONDE & (im ashamed to admit but ive watched it sa SM) D'ANOTHERS.

Johnny boy, if you can, try to find a copy of PINOY BLONDE, alam ko ganyan ang trip mong movies. Astig din yung soundtrack. There are moments of brilliance sa movie pero overall medyo tagilid..... Sayang..... Not your typical pinoy flick sana.....

www.pinoyblonde.com

D'Anothers. dumb pinoy comedy. Nuff Said. uy pero natawa din naman ako. Suportahan natin ang pelikulang pilipino. Waheheheheheehehhhe. Take note may DANCE OFF sequence in the middle of the movie. :)

Movie that i recommend:

Johnny, try to find the movie PRIMER. Sundance winner. Time Travel Movie. Mind Fuck movie. Hangang ngayon litong lito pa rin ako kung ano nangyari....... Independent low budget film na may laman...... If ever we make a movie gusto ko ganyan ang impact sa audience.....

Belated happy birthday FUCKERS!

Paul, Gener, rest day ko sa SAT-SUN. Labas naman tayo.......

later folks....

Salamat!

2005-07-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

hahaha...thanks sa pagbati!

wala lang. I feel old now. gusto nga sana uiw ulit dyan kaso no time and money. ipon ulit ako. I'll be home before you know it. Bilis ng panahon eh. Post ko rin dito yung poem na nagawa ko on my birthday... hope you guys like it.

The Truth About Love and Alcohol

Being drunk is like being inlove.

Both follow the same symptoms:

You can’t think straight.

Everything seems fun at the time.

Everything seems right.

Getting hurt is overpowered by

the anesthetic substance induced thru ur blood stream.

Then the morning after brings you a hangover.

Your head hurts.

You’re full of question about the stupid things that you did;

You are full of regrets about the things you’ve said.

and you wish you never had started to begin with.

The funny thing is…

No matter how hurt you get.

No matter how stupid you feel.

You’ll do it again.

.....................................

its nice to hear that Rayfel is still kicking!
Tell the rest of the kada to blog naman.
Kahit minsan lang, it would be nice to hear from everyone.
Kwento naman kayo tungkol sa mga lovelife pare.

as for me, my viet ex is kind off showing some signs that she wants to get back with me.
However im not sure if i really want to; I still have feelings for her, but a part of me tells that i should just let the past go and move on. I kept telling myself that there's going to be someone out there for me. But as day after day pass, my hopes dwindle. I don't know anymore if that person would come to my life. Do I have to look for her? I'm just a little scared about the future pare. I'm getting older. I want to have that someone whom I know I could share the rest of my life. I want to wake up one day, knowing that I'll have someone to hold my hand and tell me its going to be ok. Haay naku. Mga kapatid, I want to fall inlove again.

Nga pla, I started smoking more and more now. I hate it. But the more I hate it the more it is harder to quit. I want to quit. I just need that extra push; kung me gf lang sana ako na magbabawal sakin. I think it would be easier to end this effing habit.

so, yun na lang muna for now. After i post this, i'll play World of Warcraft -kaaddict.

Post kayo ha? i check our site quite often. nga pla bago makalimutan: Boy! Musta na ang online business mo? tell me more about it.

Keep posting guys, and I love you all.

John turning 23

2005-07-19T10:39:00.000+08:00

John Happy Birthday!!!

Pare hinahanap ko account mo sa friendster di ko makita. Imemessage ko sana. San ba celebration natin? hehehe. Itagay mo na lang kami. Yaan mo pag nagkainumankami sayo unang tagay. Cheers!!! F*ck her for me!!! biro lang. hehehe. Happy birthday ulit pare.

Pareng John...

2005-07-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

Pare, happy birthday!

Painom ka naman.

Rayfel is Alive!

2005-07-17T12:17:00.000+08:00

Thank God! After a very hectic week, Friday was a breather for all of us in the office. Kuya Bong was happy to let us taste his adobong bibi, kinilaw and of course! Brandy.
Happy birthday, Kuya Bong!

With all the fuzz that is going in the past few weeks in our so much sensationalize politics, Gener and I finally caught Rayfel last Saturday (Uhm—Ah—What’s the connection?). Anyway, we’re on our way to Quiapo when we bumped Rayfel in Recto. And so we went to the pirate infested area, which by the way, we used to go to and a favorite hang out of Boboy and Gener, too.

Then, 2 bottles of San Mig Light suited us up ‘till 8. Rayfel got the chance to let us know that he’ll be donning the ugly black suit this October. Finally! Another brother will become a jobless young professional. Work here really sucks!

Next week, I plan to watch The Island with Gener and Rayfel and whoever wants to be hitched.

SM City San Lazaro, sucks! Shops inside the mall are like stables. After all, the place was a hippodrome, ha, ha!

I'm back!!!!!!!

2005-07-12T07:47:00.000+08:00

How's it been guys? Its been a while since i last blogged. I have been busy with school and Max's. I have finished my first amateur photoshoot with Pops, a Black rapper, a friend of mine. And to my surprise a korean girl from myspace, asked if I can take photos of her, upon seeing my work! There's a little problemo though - she lives 6 hours away (LA.)

Me and my ex (Christine) are talking again. But i'm not quite sure if i want to rekindle the flame. Maybe I'll just continue to talk to her and see where it goes from there.

Almost done with summer school. This coming Wednesday's my finals, and the next day would be the last day! yahoo! finally more time to enjoy summer.

I work 4 days a week at the resto. Thurs- Sun. When Fall sem starts I'm just working Sat and Sun.

I'm craving for some Isaw right now mga kapatid!

Oh, before if forget my wife - Heart - 6th in the 100 most sexiest! haha! thats my girl!

*Current Stuffs*

What I'm listening to:
Beachboys, John Mayer, BEP Monkey Business

Movies I've seen:
War of the Worlds (3 out of 5), Batman Begins ( 2.5 out of 5), Hitch (dvd) ( 4 out of 5), Infernal Affairs (dvd) (4.5 out of 5), Oldboy ( 5 out of 5)

Book im currently reading:
In the Hands of Dante (not that exciting. But I like the boldness the author has with his words)

What I'm playing:
World of Warcraft, hella fun.

What I'm worried about:
next president natin si Noli tapos ang vice president si Rex Cortez.

Sa uulitin mga kapatid!

A Fish Called Flower Horn

2005-07-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

My officemate, Kuya Rocel, was the one who introduced this fish (see www.flowerfish.com). I was only 3 days old at the office when I got a chance to see what it look like. This fish, when I first saw it, I thought it was a tilapia. As flower horns mature, a bump on its head occur and its colors change (that depends on what you feed them according to Kuya Rocel). Now, after almost 3 months, I decided to get involve in this hobby. Ours is just a little place, so I decided that I’ll do it in the office.
This morning, I bought an aquarium set and Kuya Rocel provided me with a flower horn. It’s still small and hopefully it will turn to a beautiful colored, monkey head like kind of fish which flower horns are known for. They said that this kind of fish when are fully-developed can cost around 5K or more (depends on the size and head of the fish). I’ll let Kuya Rocel take care of the fish. After all, he’s the expert on this.

Paul… Out!

Having Problems with My iPod

2005-07-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

I was excited when Tito Dan told me that he bought me an iPod. It was brought to me by my cousin 2 weeks ago. I immediately downloaded all the necessary softwares for I know that it was a second-hand iPod. Unfortunately, the iPod has a problem. Worst is, I think it’s a hard drive problem. After I successfully reformatted the iPod, connecting it to my pc and transferring mp3s became my problem. Until now, I’m still looking for the best possible solution. Definitely, this is the disadvantage of buying a segunda mano. The good thing is I can borrow my sister’s iPod mini, which is perfectly working. Now, I’m thinking whether I will buy a brand new iPod or hope that there will be new solutions that will come out soon. I’ll try to bring it to an Apple Center and hope that they can help.

Paul out…

We've Seen War of the Worlds

2005-06-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

I'm with Gener and Oliver last Wednesday and we were able to watch Spielberg's latest flick, War of the Worlds. Personally, I didn't like the movie that much. Though, you can rightly tell that it was indeed a Spielberg movie. You know, the father and son problem, the lighting that was used, etc. Nevertheless, I liked his interpretation of the Tripods and the visual effects of the movie. Tom Cruise is also OK and Dakota! Ugh! She did nothing but scream. Sigh.

I'm hoping that I could talk to Boboy and John one of these days. How are you, guys? Are you making enough money with your sidelines? Message me soon, please!

This is Paul, out!

www.pinoyautosurf.com

2005-05-17T19:28:00.000+08:00

Website is now online finally!

After a few weeks (2-3 weeks) of setting up the website including setting up domain, hosting, editing and doing basic html, i finally finished my informational and referral website.

The website will focus on internet money making scheme called AUTOSURF.

AutoSurf sites are websites that allows you to double or even triple your money in a few months time. It works something like a pyramid scheme, ponzi scheme, and its quite risky but im pretty much confident that it will work.

There are undeniable proof that the site pays its members. I already invested $ 200 on the program. Hopefully on the 15th of July, Ill be able to receive my first payout of $300.

I created the website just for the additional cash the referrals will generate, but if you join the program, no need to refer anyone, no selling of products and it will just take you an hour or two of internet surfing.

My plans are as follows:

1. Create website (already done)
2. Invite people to view website (by sending out tons of emails. going to different forums and posting)
3. Hopefully this will generate additional cash and earnings.

view www.pinoyautosurf.com for more details.

That Place in Sta. Mesa

2005-05-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

It was a busy day for all of us in CFA. Sir Nick, our publisher ordered us to submit our entries for the upcoming Catholic Mass Media Awards. Damn! We didn't expect that it took us 5 fucking hours to submit all our entries. As usual, today was the deadline for the submission of entries. So, all of the interested participants wanted to beat it. Luckily, we did!

Then, we went back to the office to report about what happened. Surprisingly, Sir Nick invited us to have some beer. "Just one for the road," he said. He's the boss so we didn't turned him down. This was the exciting part! My officemates teased me that this was kind of a baptism. Little did they know that I already knew those kind of fucking things!

And you know what happened next...

I blogged this not to show it off but to share another unforgettable experienced I had from my work. Aside from the real benefits I get from my work, such as enjoying what I do and the privilege to hone my hidden talent in journalism, I begin to experience things that I failed to do when I was with Lillette. These are the things I missed during those days and GOD... Thank you! I'm really having the time of my beautiful fucking life!!!

Happy Fiesta!

2005-05-15T19:30:00.000+08:00

I didn’t know na fiesta pala sa amin today. When I woke up this morning, nakita ko na may inaayos na karo sina Sir Leo sa ibaba. Kaya pala! Fiesta sa amin!
We do not prepare kapag fiesta. I don’t know why. Since we moved here sa P. Guevarra, hindi pa kami naghanda tuwing fiesta. Maybe because birth month nila Papa, Mama at Nene ang May. Imagine, 3 times na kaming naghahanda! Ang sakit sa bulsa!

Last Friday, we celebrated the graduation of Sir Nato and Sir Joy.

Congratulations!

Mga officemates ko sila. And I learned that they’re in CFA for a long time. Well, nasa itsura’t kilos naman nila, eh. Sarap ng inom namin! Tamang-tama lang. Brandy tapos banlaw ng San Mig Light. Sarap din ng pulutan at kwentuhan.

Medyo serious kaya tahimik lang ako.

I learned something again… I’m glad dahil sa Publications Center ako napunta! Ganoon pala sa Center namin. Open-minded ang karamihan at midyang-media ang dating! It was really an unforgettable affair.

Anyway, I had my first O.T. sa office last Saturday. Pandagdag sahod din ‘yun! Sayang! Zero pa rin ang love life ko. Pero OK lang ‘yun! Happy naman ako, eh! Darating din ‘yun. ‘Di naman ako naiinip…

Feeling lost

2005-05-13T17:42:00.000+08:00

pare, depress na naman ako. nagiisa, wala makausap. sana andito kayo. wala lang...lungkot lang,,,log in naman kayo sa messenger!!!! :(

pinoyautosurf.com

2005-05-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

Malapit na magawa site ko. wahehehehe. I already bought the domain name and hosting. The site is not yet live pero if you click on the link, pwede na, may teaser na. :)

-Im having a hard time adding content. 5 simple pages lang pero ang hirap lagyan ng text. Argh.
-Hopefully after a week mauupload ko na everything.
-Once the site is uploaded, magstastart na rin akong mag spam to promote the site.

-Dami ko na nagastos.

-Plus nagkaproblema pa kong malaki na kinailangan ng salapi. :(

www.pinoyautosurf.com

A Month...

2005-05-06T13:10:00.000+08:00

It's my first month at work and I received my first pay check. We've been to Subic last week and it was fun. Last week too, I went out with my gym buddies and it was double fun. It was a memorable event! Hahaha!!!

Sana we could go and chill out soon, guys! Sagot ko!

I'm really having fun at work and I'm glad sa CFA ako napasok. Most of them are nice! Lalo na sa department namin. Sana, after six months, ma-regular ako. I know I can learn a lot from my work and I'm not wasting it. Screw the low salary, masaya naman ako, eh.

Ikakasal na daw si Lilleth this month. I'm not invited. Buti na lang. At sa tingin ko naman hinde talaga ako invited. I talked to my friend from college sabi nila di na rin sila a-attend. Napikon yata, mayabang daw kasi.

Zero pa rin lovelife ko. OK lang na ganito muna. Ayaw ko muna ng committment. Mabigat masyado. Pero OK ako sa date and friends. Hangang doon muna... 'Di naman ako si Richard Gomez or si Aga Muhlach para maghangad kaagad-agad ng girlfriend. Sana dumating din ang day na makatagpo ako ng girl na pang-long term at hinde ako iiwan in the long run...

Ipon ako ng pera. Gusto kong makabili ng Ipod tsaka ng bagong digital camera. Siguro mga 1 year bago ko ma-ipon 'yun. Sobrang baba kasi ng sahod dito sa CFA, eh.

Hope to see you soon, mga p're!

Wassupper!!

2005-04-29T15:16:00.000+08:00

boy: pare, mukhang malufet yang inabalak mo ah...ehehehehe...pasabik ka pa!

pol: im happy that youre enjoying what ur doing right now. Wala bang nyik update sayo? sige sama ako sa inuman!

new: parekoy, inuman na naman yan ah! sabi ni pol sagot nya daw - pagbigyan mo na! sige hanapin ko ung movie na suggest mo

jomarpage: o ano na balita sa kada in general? kikita pa ba? thanks nga pla sa support mga kapatid! sino ba ang me mga bagong balita in terms of nyiks?? kwento naman dyan!!

Eto nga pla mga movies na hinahanap ko pa:
- the machinist
- you and me jun ji hyun ulit!! ehehehehe

A Toast to Our Fellow... JOHN!

2005-04-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

Naks! Naman! All praises ang 'Kada kay Pareng John! Talaga namang nakaka-bilib! Truly, I'm proud of you, bro. I know ganun din ang nararamdaman ng 'Kada.

Para kay Boboy:
Share mo naman bagong "raket" mo! Tama na ang suspense...

Para kay Gener:
Kailan tayo iinom? Ako ang taya! Makukuha ko na first salary next week! Yahoo! Syempre, lahat invited. Pati si John, maski sa spirits man lang ay makasama natin.

Para sa Hinde Nakaka-alam:
I'm working at the Communication Foundation for Asia-Media Apostolate, Inc. It is non-stock, non-profit media organization. In short, it is a charitable institution. I work as an editorial assistant for Barkada Magazine, an academic supplement usually subscribed by Catholic high schools around the country.
I am happy to say that I enjoy working in the company and though it's a low-paying job I love what I'm doing!

Balita sakin

2005-04-27T17:40:00.000+08:00

Lupit mo John. Pagpatuloy mo lang yan. Next na balik mo kami naman kunan mo. hahahah. biro lang. Tama wag ka ng mgengineering, mukhang mas masaya ka dyan e. Tignan mo ko napapagisip na ko, ngengineering ako kaso parang ganun din. Wala kasing kwenta pag namamasukan ka lang. Magbubusiness na lang ako kontrolado ko pa oras ko. As of now ganun pa din, i'm into shifting schedule sa Megalink kaya hirap gumawa ng lakad. Wala na kong maayang uminom sa barkada. heheh. Naginuman kami last friday nung mga katrabaho ko sa Alabang dati. Wala lang. Wala pa ding chicks, zero pa din. Boboy naghahanap ako ng katulad ng ipod shuffle, nabasa ko kasi sa review pangit ausio quality ing ipod shuffle. Saka alam mo ung .ogg na file, nghahanap ako ng mp3 player na supported un. D na ko nakakapanuod ng movie ngayon. DVD's na napanuod ko e un pa ring mga hiniram ko kay Boboy. Lupit "Old Boy" John try mong mghanap dyan. Right now m finishing watching "Samurai X" ung pinapalabas sa TV, nakuha ko sa opisina kumpleto. Bagong kanta medyo huli na ko. hehehe. Mga luma pa din alam ko. "Jopay" ng Mayonnaise saka mga kanta ng spongecola. Boy kailan ka asa bahay? Balik ko na mga DVD's mo, palitan ko. hehehe. Monday saka Tuesday off ko. Cge post na lang ako ulit.

my new website...

2005-04-27T14:54:00.000+08:00

www.pinoyautosurf.com

(web address nonexistent yet... coming soon.)

Good Work Johnny Boy!

2005-04-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

Awesome dude. Galing. Speechless me......

Dapat Kinacareer na yan.

Si Gener at Paul di na nagpaparamdam....